zenki
12-04-2005, 11:49 AM
An escape from reality could have been better. It could have saved me gallons more of tears, but reality seemed to be closing in on me, there’s no other way but to confront the hurdle. Like the sun’s ray, its presence burned my senses, dwindled my defenses making me more and more vulnerable. Though I am thoroughly sentient of everything that’s happening I let it do away with it, leaving me more and more frail.
With hope and love my only weapon with the struggle, I staunchly proceeded. Not thinking whom I’ll hurt and how much hurt I would suffer. Yet with every inch that we became close the more secure I felt, making me forget all the other worries at hand. Making me live in the world that only the two of us know—revolving around the love that we claim we have.
I gaily danced with the breeze humming our songs thinking nothing but the bliss that I feel, not considering the possible ache that might be lurking around. Cliché as it may seem, but I lived my days one day at a time savoring every moment that is to be cherished. With smile not fading, I dreamed and dreamed high, soaring to heights my thoughts could reach. Yes, every new day seemed to be a winter wonderland where love could flourish giving meaning to the coldness of the wind and the dullness of the surrounding. It was ethereal and no one can steal the moment of love and passion from me. Or so I thought.
Then a forceful shake woke me from my reverie. Stunned and desolate, I stared at the glass door piercing my way out of the lurid thoughts, of what used to be happy thoughts. This is the day that I feared the most, yet I often dismissed for I was feeling extreme happiness that I forego of all inhibitions I had; giving all the love that I could offer with nothing left for myself to hold on to.
And now what is left to me is nothing but bitter memories. Memories of the touch that used to enthuse me with so much life; the kiss that I longed for; the hands that assured me that nothing appalling could ever happen to me; the gaze that almost melt my heart away; the voice that usually leaves me breathless; the love that I thought was mine but never was.
The glaring light from the sun is blistering my sanity, and the cold wind triggered the numbness waiting to break out. The impact of the moment is disconcerting, leaving me lost for words—even for thoughts. Darkness could be the greatest companion at the moment. I closed my eyes as if shutting and shielding myself against all the pain, hoping that the soreness would weaken. I lulled myself to sleep hoping that tomorrow would be bright and sunny, with a rainbow promising new beginnings. Still full of hope, I walked the road to my new winter wonderland.
i wrote this one out of depression 
tfcfan
12-04-2005, 01:04 PM
zenki san,medyo nabibilib na ako sa pagka-makata mo kaya lang sobrang haba naman,sumakit tuloy mata ko!
abakitba
12-04-2005, 03:09 PM
Zenki, get professional medical help. You don’t need to depress or bore anyone else. Good luck.
docomo
12-04-2005, 03:27 PM
Zenki, get professional medical help. You don’t need to depress or bore anyone else. Good luck.
… Just a thought… Wouldn’t it be nice if you said something better before hitting the reply? You could have said something better , and maybe (just maybe) it could be nicer somehow… Don’t get offended , It’s just a thought 
tfcfan
12-04-2005, 04:14 PM
… Just a thought… Wouldn’t it be nice if you said something better before hitting the reply? You could have said something better , and maybe (just maybe) it could be nicer somehow… Don’t get offended , It’s just a thought
Oo nga agree ako sa’yo Docomo San!
@abakitba, igalang mo ang matatanda!
docomo
12-04-2005, 04:22 PM
Oo nga agree ako sa’yo Docomo San!
@abakitba, igalang mo ang matatanda!
It’s not the “matatanda” that matters here… It’s the assumption of " getting / needing a professional medical help… (kulang na lang sinabi nyang sira ulo ang nag posts)
andres
12-04-2005, 04:31 PM
… Just a thought… Wouldn’t it be nice if you said something better before hitting the reply? You could have said something better , and maybe (just maybe) it could be nicer somehow… Don’t get offended , It’s just a thought
Oo nga naman… abakitba san, para namang hindi ka pa nakaranas ng pagkabigo.
Zenki, cheer up :sweeties:, lahat tayo dumadaan dyan.
tfcfan
12-04-2005, 04:36 PM
It’s not the “matatanda” that matters here… It’s the assumption of " getting / needing a professional medical help… (kulang na lang sinabi nyang sira ulo ang nag posts)
docomo san,joke lang yun:) (matatanda)!!!ba’t ba ang init ng ulo nyo,eh napakalamig ng panahon ngayon?
Kiss ko na lang kayo para di na kayo ma-high blood!
bati tayo ha!:wavey:
Chibi
12-04-2005, 04:38 PM
It’s not the “matatanda” that matters here… It’s the assumption of " getting / needing a professional medical help… (kulang na lang sinabi nyang sira ulo ang nag posts)
pare mag pa pogi rest ka muna dyan…puyat lang yan!!
docomo
12-04-2005, 04:39 PM
docomo san,joke lang yun:) (matatanda)!!!ba’t ba ang init ng ulo nyo,eh napakalamig ng panahon ngayon? Kiss ko na lang kayo para di na kayo ma-high blood!
bati tayo ha!:wavey:
… malamig na malamig pa sa yelo ang ulo ko tfc san … malabo pa sa patis yang sinabi moww 
tfcfan
12-04-2005, 04:42 PM
pare mag pa pogi rest ka muna dyan…puyat lang yan!!
good pm po sa inyo! Balita ko nga po kay Mang (F…)-ingisda,galing sila kahapon sa bahay ni docomo san.
puting tainga
12-04-2005, 05:52 PM
Hi Zenki,
Nice posting.
Very poetic.
Kahit boring to some people, hindi sa akin.
Totoo.
I re-read all your posts and also all posts of abakitba before writing this.
(There is such a function.
Having read all the treads already I pretty often do this in order to brush up my memory.
Kawawa naman ako, my memory is getting worse every year.)
Getting professional help is not something to be ashamed of.
If you can not handle it by yourself anymore, you should get it.
For that, abakitba’s advice was very true and to the point, though the wordings were a bit too direct.)
However, as far as I imagine, your situation is not that serious.
You came here to Japan presumably in early October this year, to study, and you will go all the way to Hiroshima to spend Christmas and New Year.
So much change, new environment, cold weather, dark Japan Sea.
By writing and sharing what you wrote, you could get out of the depression for a moment.
That you knew it was depression was a great starting point.
Eat the famous okonomiyaki and oyster, in Hiroshima.
Visit atomic bomb museum.
Last not but least, read the Bible.
May layunin and Dios sa bawat isang pagsubok, or so we believe.
halloween
12-04-2005, 06:23 PM
@Ababakitba
Curious lang ako bakit mo naman nasabing kelangan nya ng medical help nung tao? Simpleng nagsha share lang naman ng sentimyento nya about a failed relationship. Isa pa, about making ther reader bored or depressed, ako hindi na bore or na depress ng basahin ko yung post.
Dont get me wrong ha dahil di ko nature ang magmagaling o mangaral pero 2 puntos lang. Una, sana sa susunod maging maingat ka sa salitang gagamitin mo at isipin kung offensive ba o hindi. Pangalawa, kung hinid tumutugma sa panlasa mo yung binasa mo, I suggest you just ignore it, thats the least you can do to show a little RESPECT.
Chibi
12-04-2005, 07:25 PM
good pm po sa inyo! Balita ko nga po kay Mang (F…)-ingisda,galing sila kahapon sa bahay ni docomo san.
gud p.m. din tfcfan. nanggulolang naman kami sa bahay ni pareng Docomo kagabi!hehehehh! heto fuyat ang mga pipol…pero nag enjoy naman kami.
zenki
12-05-2005, 12:27 AM
tfcfan hmm im sorry pinasakit ko mata mo…when i read it i didnt think its that long…so my assumption was wrong…
abakitba hmm i think i’ll know if i’d be needing professional medical help and i think im still in the right state of mind, otherwise i could not have written that or im not replying to this thread…thanks anyway for taking time to read it…
docomo andres and halloween salamat po…
puting tainga hmm thanks…i dont actually know if id be offended or what…but then looking at the bright side of things i suppose that abakitba’s post mean not to hurt anyone…me for this matter…salamat ulet for the sound “suggestions” i do hope id enjoy my vacation in hiroshima
just my two cents worth…
i write when im happy,sad, ecstatic…or whatever extreme feeling im going through…and it has been my outlet for years…and the thread says musings…Public expressions of private thoughts, and, err, other stuff…that’s why i posted it…
gabby
12-05-2005, 01:44 PM
An escape from reality could have been better. It could have saved me gallons more of tears, but reality seemed to be closing in on me, there’s no other way but to confront the hurdle. Like the sun’s ray, its presence burned my senses, dwindled my defenses making me more and more vulnerable. Though I am thoroughly sentient of everything that’s happening I let it do away with it, leaving me more and more frail.
With hope and love my only weapon with the struggle, I staunchly proceeded. Not thinking whom I’ll hurt and how much hurt I would suffer. Yet with every inch that we became close the more secure I felt, making me forget all the other worries at hand. Making me live in the world that only the two of us know—revolving around the love that we claim we have.
I gaily danced with the breeze humming our songs thinking nothing but the bliss that I feel, not considering the possible ache that might be lurking around. Cliché as it may seem, but I lived my days one day at a time savoring every moment that is to be cherished. With smile not fading, I dreamed and dreamed high, soaring to heights my thoughts could reach. Yes, every new day seemed to be a winter wonderland where love could flourish giving meaning to the coldness of the wind and the dullness of the surrounding. It was ethereal and no one can steal the moment of love and passion from me. Or so I thought.
Then a forceful shake woke me from my reverie. Stunned and desolate, I stared at the glass door piercing my way out of the lurid thoughts, of what used to be happy thoughts. This is the day that I feared the most, yet I often dismissed for I was feeling extreme happiness that I forego of all inhibitions I had; giving all the love that I could offer with nothing left for myself to hold on to.
And now what is left to me is nothing but bitter memories. Memories of the touch that used to enthuse me with so much life; the kiss that I longed for; the hands that assured me that nothing appalling could ever happen to me; the gaze that almost melt my heart away; the voice that usually leaves me breathless; the love that I thought was mine but never was.
The glaring light from the sun is blistering my sanity, and the cold wind triggered the numbness waiting to break out. The impact of the moment is disconcerting, leaving me lost for words—even for thoughts. Darkness could be the greatest companion at the moment. I closed my eyes as if shutting and shielding myself against all the pain, hoping that the soreness would weaken. I lulled myself to sleep hoping that tomorrow would be bright and sunny, with a rainbow promising new beginnings. Still full of hope, I walked the road to my new winter wonderland.
i wrote this one out of depression
Hello! Are you alright? Homesickness can be overcome by your goal to get ahead. Don’t focus on it. Get donw to work or whatever it is that you came for in Japan. Cheer up. Your love for him will have a continuation when you will it but first thing’s first. Hope you’ll be alright. Don’t think too much about the pleasure of your love with him. It wont do you anygood. You know what talk to Chibi and the Bakla gangs. We’ll make things easier for you. Where are you here in Japan?
Paul
12-05-2005, 03:16 PM
There’s nothing wrong with your post, zenki. In fact, I admire your writing. I could never express my feelings so eloquently (writing has never been my forte). And you’re right, this area of TF is all about the expression of thoughts. I guess some people forgot about that ;).
Anyway, I hope to read more of your writing here. Next time, hopefully, in a happier tone :).
chameleon
12-05-2005, 05:07 PM
I think Zenki-san’ article was pretty interesting and nice to read…It just shows how makata ang mga Pinoy and how romantic at heart…Be strong though…
Though I was not able to read the rest due to lack of time, I was really impressed at your tenacity in writing…
Cheers,
Chameleon
gabby
12-05-2005, 05:30 PM
I think Zenki-san’ article was pretty interesting and nice to read…It just shows how makata ang mga Pinoy and how romantic at heart…Be strong though…
Though I was not able to read the rest due to lack of time, I was really impressed at your tenacity in writing…
Cheers,
Chameleon
Excuse me. I don’t want to be a smart ass, but I really have to disagree. Zinki’s prose is not ‘pretty intersting or nice’ it is disrespectful to the author. The prose is an outpouring of a lonely soul trapped in a situation which she has little control. She didn’t write it for us to be admired but to symphatise.
Please read carefully before pounding your keyboard.
docomo
12-05-2005, 06:10 PM
I think the best approach is that those who are bothered by this kind of thread should simply refrain from posting just like they do on other threads that they don’t like or don’t agree with. I think that works far better …
In other words, to each their own… We’ll never be able to find one single topic on which 100% of our membership is able to agree…
DJchot
12-05-2005, 07:18 PM
I think the best approach is that those who are bothered by this kind of thread should simply refrain from posting just like they do on other threads that they don’t like or don’t agree with. I think that works far better …
In other words, to each their own… We’ll never be able to find one single topic on which 100% of our membership is able to agree…
agree ako sa yo dito.
wala lang, alulod lang ako
zenki
12-05-2005, 07:55 PM
gabby im better…i wrote this my 15th day here and that time…i had nothing much to do…nabore ako ng husto…now load of stuff is piling up for my thesis work so im preoccupied most of the time plus my jap. lang. class…im here for my research/thesis work, by the way…and thanks po for the concern…
Paul i see…thanks i never thought id be this eloquent…i am rather a mood-writer…dont have a steady stream of work
chameleon hmm it could have been interesting to you…but devastating for me then…but its part of life that i had to go through…you’ve given a new perspective to what ive written and thanks for the appreciation
gabby
12-05-2005, 09:07 PM
gabby im better…i wrote this my 15th day here and that time…i had nothing much to do…nabore ako ng husto…now load of stuff is piling up for my thesis work so im preoccupied most of the time plus my jap. lang. class…im here for my research/thesis work, by the way…and thanks po for the concern…
Paul i see…thanks i never thought id be this eloquent…i am rather a mood-writer…dont have a steady stream of work
chameleon hmm it could have been interesting to you…but devastating for me then…but its part of life that i had to go through…you’ve given a new perspective to what ive written and thanks for the appreciation
Good! That’s it get yourself busy and then after awhile you’ll get over your homesickness. What is your topic research? We might be of help. Just let us know how to help if ever you need it.
Cheers!
puting tainga
12-06-2005, 12:44 AM
＞What is your topic research? We might be of help. Just let us know how to help if ever you need it.
Yes, we hope your study goes well.
However, since your profile suggests which University you are studying, (It starts with a K , diba? ) revealing the research subject may make it easier to identify you.
Anyway, it seems you are studying at one of the best Universities in Japan, and I hope you will make this opportunity a successful one.
chameleon
12-06-2005, 08:45 AM
I guess what I meant by nice was the fact that somebody honored us enough to share her melancholic thoughts,not that being sad is nice at all…unless one is masochistic…
Life has its ups and downs you know…and what you can do is accept that sometimes you are up in a roller coaster ,and sometimes you are down…I did not mean to gloat that you are sad…And expressing grief is not being disrespectful at all for the author ,Gabby…It is respect for oneself…because you acknowledge your sorrow,not hide it or pretend…and because of it, you can make things better because you are facing reality,not denying it…
When I said nice, i meant the pure act of writing is beautiful by itself…when you can draw out your angst and celebrate sorrow itself by wallowing in it…and then getting over it…
That is nice,not sugar and spice nice but okay nice…
And anyway, I am entitled to my own comments right as well as the author…so people should also refrain from negative presumptions…Mayb e some people do not feel okay about somebody expressing such a negative feeling in such a public forum…but it is a forum…a venue for venting our feelings and expressions…an outlet when you are bored or happy or sad…
so let us all enjoy it and learn from it…
gabby
12-06-2005, 09:19 AM
I guess what I meant by nice was the fact that somebody honored us enough to share her melancholic thoughts,not that being sad is nice at all…unless one is masochistic…
Life has its ups and downs you know…and what you can do is accept that sometimes you are up in a roller coaster ,and sometimes you are down…I did not mean to gloat that you are sad…And expressing grief is not being disrespectful at all for the author ,Gabby…It is respect for oneself…because you acknowledge your sorrow,not hide it or pretend…and because of it, you can make things better because you are facing reality,not denying it…
When I said nice, i meant the pure act of writing is beautiful by itself…when you can draw out your angst and celebrate sorrow itself by wallowing in it…and then getting over it…
That is nice,not sugar and spice nice but okay nice…
And anyway, I am entitled to my own comments right as well as the author…so people should also refrain from negative presumptions…Mayb e some people do not feel okay about somebody expressing such a negative feeling in such a public forum…but it is a forum…a venue for venting our feelings and expressions…an outlet when you are bored or happy or sad…
so let us all enjoy it and learn from it…
Chamelion it is alright. Don’t be defensive. Prose is not like a painting that one needs to admire. The etiquette for reading prose and poetry is to connect yourself to it depending on the subject and then express your thoughts. To say pretty nice and interesting is a smuck of disrespect to a writer.
gabby
12-06-2005, 09:24 AM
＞What is your topic research? We might be of help. Just let us know how to help if ever you need it.
Yes, we hope your study goes well.
However, since your profile suggests which University you are studying, (It starts with a K , diba? ) revealing the research subject may make it easier to identify you.
Anyway, it seems you are studying at one of the best Universities in Japan, and I hope you will make this opportunity a successful one.
IMHO It is alright to be identified as long as you don’t have the details of my file like my telephone numbers, house address and my credit cards. My real name is Ronnie and I am 100 percent sure no one wants to know me. So what is the big deal?
zenki
12-06-2005, 11:12 AM
puting tainga i suppose you are thinking right…since ( i think) its the only daigaku in the area (or i may be wrong) and what do you mean by “easier to identify you” its not as if someone would like stalk anybody here right? i do hope my study goes well too and i do hope to finish very soon…
gabby thanks for the offer but i guess people in my lab is giving me all the help that i need…
chameleon well said…
Paul
12-06-2005, 01:28 PM
zenki, may kaibigan akong pinoy na mag-asawa diyan sa university niyo. baka nakilala mo na. mahilig din sa camera tulad ko :). sabi nga niya sila na nga lang ang natira diyang pinoy na estudyante kasi nag-uwian na yung iba.
DaiRyouKoJin
12-06-2005, 02:43 PM
zenki, if you have spare time…nakupow! eh lumabas labas ka dyan sa house mo. mag “sight-seing” ka na lang…marami ding papa-ble dito sa japan! hihihi aliwin mo na lang sarili mo sa katitingin sa knila.:hihi: 
Life is too short para ma-waste lang sa pagiging malungkot…ang sarap sarap maging young and single! :bouncy:
ang sarap sarap mabuhay kahit itlog lang ang ulam araw araw! mwehehehe :yippee:
tfcfan
12-06-2005, 03:00 PM
tfcfan hmm im sorry pinasakit ko mata mo…when i read it i didnt think its that long…so my assumption was wrong…
abakitba hmm i think i’ll know if i’d be needing professional medical help and i think im still in the right state of mind, otherwise i could not have written that or im not replying to this thread…thanks anyway for taking time to read it…
docomo andres and halloween salamat po…
puting tainga hmm thanks…i dont actually know if id be offended or what…but then looking at the bright side of things i suppose that abakitba’s post mean not to hurt anyone…me for this matter…salamat ulet for the sound “suggestions” i do hope id enjoy my vacation in hiroshima
just my two cents worth…
i write when im happy,sad, ecstatic…or whatever extreme feeling im going through…and it has been my outlet for years…and the thread says musings…Public expressions of private thoughts, and, err, other stuff…that’s why i posted it…
Zenki San,kahit naman sumakit ang mata ko nalibang naman ako:)
hope to see more of your post here!
zenki
12-06-2005, 08:14 PM
zenki, may kaibigan akong pinoy na mag-asawa diyan sa university niyo. baka nakilala mo na. mahilig din sa camera tulad ko :). sabi nga niya sila na nga lang ang natira diyang pinoy na estudyante kasi nag-uwian na yung iba.
hmmm hehehe…kilala ko sila…before pa ako nagpunta dito…nagmeet na ba kayo before?
DaiRyouKoJin-- tama…i agree hehe…pero feeling ko magkakamukha mga hapon…di ko gaano makita difference nila eh…i mean…minsan nagkakamali nga ako ng tingin sa babae at sa lalaki…hehe
tfcfan – salamat…i do hope i could write and post often…
Paul
12-06-2005, 09:09 PM
hmmm hehehe…kilala ko sila…before pa ako nagpunta dito…nagmeet na ba kayo before?
Ah, pareho din kayo ng field? Binisita namin sila diyan last year at nilibot nila kami sa Noto Peninsula. Ikumusta mo na lang kami.
zenki
12-06-2005, 09:23 PM
Paul pareho kami ng undergrad field…pero ngaun magkaiba kame ng laboratory…so medyo magkaiba ng field pero under ng isa pang broader field…wahaha ang gulo ko…ah basta sige ikukumusta po kita… sila din ang taga pasyal ko dito eh hehe …
puting tainga
12-06-2005, 11:37 PM
Depression
Let me share my experience on depression in Japan.
(Not my own, actually. And they are all Japanese.)
So far, 4 of my acquaintances(co-workers in broader sense) have committed suicide. (and succeeded, 3 by hanging. 1 by train)
2 of my acquaintances are right now taking a long leave, due to depression.(certifie d by doctors)
Depression is so common and curable, but at the same time it is potentially dangerous.
According to our anti-depression manual, (such a thing exists in my workplace!) there usually are “signs” and co-workers should be alert and report to the amo, and then the amo will tell the guy to get professional help, if necessary.
As I re-read all her posts again, (there is such a function) I thought she was OK.
But I had to do that, for I knew it was not the first time she mentioned the word depression.
puting tainga
12-07-2005, 12:01 AM
Another thing very interesting in the anti-depression manual is that,
“Never say Ganbatte to depressed people.”
Because they have been giving it their best (ganbatteru), to the very limit, it only makes them worse.
Sori, medyo off-topic.
Pero sana useful to those who have depressed people around them.
adechan
12-07-2005, 07:29 PM
An escape from reality could have been better. It could have saved me gallons more of tears, but reality seemed to be closing in on me, there’s no other way but to confront the hurdle. Like the sun’s ray, its presence burned my senses, dwindled my defenses making me more and more vulnerable. Though I am thoroughly sentient of everything that’s happening I let it do away with it, leaving me more and more frail.
i wrote this one out of depression
this is a great piece of writing.
i can relay on your depression, i was been there,
and in my experience, that was one way how i learned to asked the truth inside me, and yes i am very thankful because i found it, there is peace amidst the storm, words can’t explain it, but those who experience it knows it very well.
May you experience that peace too. no need to say who is my source
jpt4u2c
12-07-2005, 11:22 PM
NATAWA AKO SA SINULAT… hahhaa. sumakit mata ko! NO JOKE! haha
pero I HATE WINTER!!! I HATE IT!!!
docomo
12-08-2005, 02:04 AM
NATAWA AKO SA SINULAT… hahhaa. sumakit mata ko! NO JOKE! haha
pero I HATE WINTER!!! I HATE IT!!!
san ka natawa??? sa sinulat ni zenki? di ka ba nagkamali ng sagot?
abakitba
12-08-2005, 03:28 AM
“So far, 4 of my acquaintances(co-workers in broader sense) have committed suicide. (and succeeded, 3 by hanging. 1 by train)”
Wonder kong any of those four realized that they needed professional medical attention.
Ang dami naman.
Did they kill themselves because you were their acquantance.
Just kidding, I think
jpt4u2c
12-08-2005, 10:50 AM
san ka natawa??? sa sinulat ni zenki? di ka ba nagkamali ng sagot?
oo sa sinulat nya.
jpt4u2c
12-08-2005, 10:51 AM
san ka natawa??? sa sinulat ni zenki? di ka ba nagkamali ng sagot?
oo sa sinulat nya. and sa reactions
docomo
12-08-2005, 12:11 PM
oo sa sinulat nya. and sa reactions
can you explain to us kung bakit ka natawa? curious lang??
gabby
12-08-2005, 01:49 PM
“So far, 4 of my acquaintances(co-workers in broader sense) have committed suicide. (and succeeded, 3 by hanging. 1 by train)”
Wonder kong any of those four realized that they needed professional medical attention.
Ang dami naman.
Did they kill themselves because you were their acquantance.
Just kidding, I think
Ayokong makipag-EB sa iyo baka malasin ako para ka plang si kamatayan ang dami mong nakilala na nag-suicide. Gusto pa naman kitang makita kaya huwag na lang baka ma -depress ako at maisipang magpakamatay.
Raiden
12-08-2005, 03:50 PM
An escape from reality could have been better. It could have saved me gallons more of tears, but reality seemed to be closing in on me, there’s no other way but to confront the hurdle. Like the sun’s ray, its presence burned my senses, dwindled my defenses making me more and more vulnerable. Though I am thoroughly sentient of everything that’s happening I let it do away with it, leaving me more and more frail…
i wrote this one out of depression
Hanep! :eek: Ang galing mong mag-compose. Very broad ang vocabulary at expert ang dating. nag-major ka ba sa English? …:bowdown:
As for being bored and depressed, Playstation 2 or Xbox game console with a copy of Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas is the best remedy. It works for me.
zenki
12-08-2005, 05:35 PM
puting tainga never thought of committing suicide…i think that is really pathetic…heheh besides ayoko pa mamatay…dami ko pa gusto gawin eh…
adechan i wish i could find that peace too…
jpt4u2c natawa din ako nung nabasa ko comment mo…feeling ko masayahin kang tao… really…i admire people who can look at sadness in a different light…heheh i wish i could do that too…sorry pinasakit ko din mata mo…
raiden haha… its part of my long lost dream…i mean creative writing and literature… i wanted to take that up in my college pero gusto ko din ng science…so ayun…i write depending on my mood…and being melancholy brings out the best in my writing (in my opinion)…i like reading more than playing playstation or xbox…thanks for the suggestion though
Chibi
12-15-2005, 10:46 PM
Ayokong makipag-EB sa iyo baka malasin ako para ka plang si kamatayan ang dami mong nakilala na nag-suicide. Gusto pa naman kitang makita kaya huwag na lang baka ma -depress ako at maisipang magpakamatay.
pa OT lang po!!!di ko kase mapigilan…
tumawa!!!:toofunny: :lol: :lol: :biglaugh: nice one Gabby!!!nabuang ako sa iyo!!
docomo
12-15-2005, 11:17 PM
pa OT lang po!!!di ko kase mapigilan…
tumawa!!!:toofunny: :lol: :lol: :biglaugh: nice one Gabby!!!nabuang ako sa iyo!!
ano ito :eeek: maghalungkat ba ng mga nakaraan… mas natawa ako sa yo chibi :grinny: :biglaugh: ( nice one)
mOtt_erU
09-12-2006, 06:44 PM
… Just a thought… Wouldn’t it be nice if you said something better before hitting the reply? You could have said something better , and maybe (just maybe) it could be nicer somehow… Don’t get offended , It’s just a thought
@ Docomo san Nice point!
Peace;)
tfcfan
10-03-2007, 09:05 PM
eto nahalungkat ko ulit kumusta na kaya si zenki, pati si raiden di na nagpaparamdam…
zenki
11-15-2007, 06:23 PM
hmmm buhay pa po… pwede pa ba ako dito? 
kahit wala na ako sa japan?
apparently di talaga ako suicidal…hehehe:D
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